Am I alone?
Is anyone else really here?
Are the people I see and hear real?
Or are they imagined?

What should I do?
Should I follow the crowd (if it exists)?
Everyone else is.
Might as well, though it makes me feel
Weak.

What are they doing?
Oh no! They can’t be!
I can’t do that … or can I?
I shouldn’t … but everyone else is.
I will.

I smile and say “It was great.”
But inside I’m crying.
I feel dirty. And next time I know
I’ll have to give in.
Again.

Well, it wasn’t so bad this time,
I must have been imagining things.
But no! I can still hear crying!
Have I hurt someone?
Have I hurt myself?
I hope not.
Next time I’ll be
Strong.

I’ve done it again. It wasn’t my fault.
I couldn’t help it!
I can hear the crying again, and it hurts.
But it feels so good, and I don’t want to miss out.
But later it hurts so bad.
What do I do? I’m so confused!
HELP ME!